It won't rain and it won't shine... it just drizzles. Ever felt that way in your daily living? Sometimes I feel like God is putting a passion or drive in my life and I get motivated to put the plan into motion but it doesn't pan out. He drives me toward it and then holds me back. What is with that? Everything seems to be going well in my life and I can't complain but nothing is going super, it's kind of drizzling with moments of partly sunny.
This weekend I went down to the army base to visit my son before he shipped out. We played the old hurry up and wait game. I had to be there by a certain time so we could wait together to hurry up and get to the next place on time so we could wait together again. We got to places on time to wait for practices and ceremonies to start, we hurried to appointments and waited for office personnel, and then we sat on base waiting hours for the next scheduled event. We hurried up to be at the bus station so we could check in on time to wait an hour for the bus. We had to be at the shuttle station on time to wait 20 minutes for the shuttle. Is life just the wait between hurry ups?
When I sense God calling I get excited about the plan, I hurry up and get started only lately it seems to be told to wait. It bears a striking resemblance to drizzle. Everything is wet but nothing is dramatically drinched like in a thunderstorm. I can feel God's presence in a subtle way but nothing dramatic like a miracle or sign. Held back by the lack of sunshine I sit at the window and wait.
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I completely understand that. God has frequently worked that way with my family and I in the past. The last "wait" I experienced was for seven months. Not an easy thing. Sometimes it feels like God gives you part of the plan so you can feel excited about something, but the rest of the plan is still to unfold on God's time. Or sometimes, you sense that God gave you a plan, but it changes over time, so that in the end, it wasn't what you started out with.
It is truly a lesson in patience. One of the hardest lessons there is and the most unpleasant.
I've learned that even though the wait is unpleasant, it is fruitful, and possibly an indicator of growth in God by allowing His will to be done in your life.
Hey, I miss your new posts. I hope you aren't having computer problems. Hope you'll return to the blogosphere soon.
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